Quattro Greetings!!

A night of entertainment, I didn't take much pictures... I didn't drink much, I barely even danced for more than 5min... I was the like the in-charged person that night, I just wanna make sure everything goes well, everyone had fun & everyone is SAFE!!... Well mission accomplished !! Ehehe... I plan to have a dinner at Spring Season soon, it's raining at the entrance but open air at the resturant, nice... Winter Season is a Bar & it was upstairs but we didn't go there... Summer is a Lounge & I think it's the one they have facing outdoors because "hot" & "outdoor" lolz... But everyone had fun... Still got bottle balance... I just hope I didn't my time & money on this if anyone dare say they didn't have fun.... Hahahaha!! Just kidding!! Lolz... There were many more ppl I wished they'd come but... hey, this ain't the first so neither will it be the last... Lucky everyone still can work the next day ehehehe!!! Yeah! Gambateh!! Thank U all!! Really really hope everyone enjoyed, DON'T EVER EVER THANK ME, But THANK YOU! For coming... Muax muax..... lotsa luv XOXO.... hehehe

...A Walk Down My Memory Lane...

The depths of the odds... Anyone can answer to this scenario? I betcha' no one can have a 100% answer to any questions that's been made up in this world... Give a man a fish & he can eat for a day... But teach a man to fish & he can eat for a lifetime... Do u know that it's alright to feel sad, but we must not let sadness stop us from living & engaging with the lives around us... What I've felt or experienced before it'll be in my past, though lost forever but never forgotten... Why ppl try to pls other ppl? Well... sometimes there's too many reason to really tell the full story of one's explanation... But do u know the fact that people are not put here on earth for our amusement. We need to treat everyone as we would want to be treated. That's the "Golden Rule"... But how many of us actually follow this "Golden Rule"? As for me, I try to follow this "Golden Rule" it's a very very long & harsh journey all the way... There's no shortcuts or u-turns along the way... I'm still on this journey, halfway there... My engine almost failed on me but each time I'll accelerate faster & I learn to pick-up as a move on everyday with my life... Ups & downs, too many bad falls i've experienced... at my age, 20.... Soon to be 21, the key to my future will be opened soon but I realized that to receive the "Key" comes with GREAT RESPONSIBILITY, OBEDIENCE, DISCIPLINE & RESPECT... I might say i'm ready for it, but nobody's perfect... No matter how hard we try to be perfect than the other, we're still who we are, they'll never be like us & neither will they... We are all the same, I treat my friends the way I wanna be treated in return, I treat my friends like my family because in family comes responsibility, learning, understanding, adaptation & hope...

Measurements of a girl...

Having a past life & a present life is two different situation we can be in... But the reasons of my blog this time is, to express the expressions of mine, maybe not too in-depth but atleast a brief structure of it...

Has anyone ever measured a girl? Up to what point? Isit worth being with her? Isit worth nurturing her? Or isit better to just torture her? Well... I think the world may be a lil cruel and selfish at times... Majority watches a girl fall for a man & falls flat to the ground without any support in the end... But has anyone ever done anything to avoid or to handle that kinda situation? No! Let me tell u why, all we ask for is to be love in return but what ppl really see in us is not the beauty that lies deep down in the heart but the beauty that lies outside... That's why "puppy love" exists so commonly in everyone's life... Neve judge a book by it's covers but seriously, who ever practice this quote? As far as I've seen, heard, know & felt, NONE... Even I, no matter how hard I try, I'll never wanna judge someone unless they've pushed me to my limits... Words can be create anytime! But feelings don't just come overnight...

Don't take us as a "sex toy" or "entertainment" of some sort, we're just trying to be like everyone else, man or woman we are ALL THE SAME... Our heart, beats the same rhythm & we share the environment together... So we're all equal like it or not, kings & queens, bosses or CEO's, we're still human... Young or old, pretty or ugly, when we die, WE ALL LOOK THE SAME "BONES"... Bones of different shapes & sizes, but when we die, WHO cares what our bones ae shaped like!! So why worry if pretty or not pretty!! We were born in our own beauty in every way, even the ugliest of all WILL turn into a swan one day... Never look down on us, so pls don't look down on our ownself...



There's a task I must do, so do everyone... Recently, lotsa thoughts & wonders... I don't know if so & so might read this blog & understand but I hope they do... I miss them, It's been a short term but filled with fun & laughters, we've built so much in this short time but in the end what happened? Haven't I done enough? Or have I done too much of help that u guys just got bored? I don't know... I won't die without friends but why must u all make it like u'll die without a boyfriend? Why? My most disappointments is to see my friends become someone that I don't recognize anymore... It's like drinking Milo & suddenly one day u're allergic to it, then that's the end of it... Why can't life be simple? That's called the challenges in life... I love facing challenges but even the one's I hate to face most, I have to conquer it no matter what... If I let one tiny issue stop me from doing/being who I am today, then all I can say is, I don't deserve what I have, what I've learnt & what I'll learn... I won't let my feelings control me, MAYBE after drinking la but still, I'll take control no matter what! It is me... No one else... I just complete my task, do my job well, make sure everything's in order, keep track of my performance & be myself... After I've completed my task, I just find my ways around to have my fun & relax, if ppl can't handle the way i do things, come to my face & tell me, it's not a challenge but everyone has a right to speak up & not speak "behind ppl's back"

Lastly... The evolution of revolution is something I've not thought about yet... But soon...

I hope that my friends out there won't take this too harsh on them... All I ask is a simple request... Respect... That's all, Give & take... I give them my full respect, whether they do wrong or right I still respect their choices... But respect me back as a friend & don't take me for granted, cos if I find out the truth, I'm no longer Sabrina, I can be Li-San in the end, I don't wanna be & never will be... My past will be my past... My anger takes me 5minutes only... But if I'm over the edge... I'm sorry is all I have to say... I only talk logical common sense... I'm allergic to bullshit most times... Thankz

Am I too good to be true? Lolz, don't try judging me, here's my answer

Things that I do lately seems off timing... Maybe I am lost in my own world? When i keep trying to think, I come to a stop & I start to wonder why... Curiosity does kill the cat sometimes... It makes me so eager to find out an answer that so much so, it takes up half of my energy just to think of an answer. But the limits I keep it to my boundaries. I have a task to fulfill everyday, like or not, I am just an ordinary girl like every human being on this earth, struggling for a living.

Sometimes I wonder, does God really look out for us from above? But who am i to judge him?! Things of my past, doings of right & wrong, all the sins & errors, all the hurt & pain, I've conquered all but I'll go through again and again. That is life, what goes around, comes around. That is why i chose to give & not take. I don't expect to receive anything in return, I only ask of a simple request from friends, family & people around me, young or old...



I believe we deserve one thing in life that we must endure in our thoughts, in our heart & in our life... That one particular request is "Respect"; With "Respect" comes great responsibility, discipline, love, friendship, life, entertainment, enjoyment, professional, people, conversations & never-ending journey to everywhere we go & to everyone we meet. We should treat people the way WE want to be treated by others... Give & take is a fair deal.

Some may say I'm foolish, I give too much but receive all the rubbish & junks. Do u know, deep down in my heart, no matter how much i give, I give with a sincere heart, with no complaints, with no doubts, with no fears, with no hopes... I feel happy watching the people around me happy. If at the end of the day, nobody notice me nor cherish my doings, it is okay for me. For I am too aware that, nobody is perfect, people may seem to cherish me "now" when they're in "need" but when they feel like they're better off without me, it is not a lost to me, for that fact I must mention it out clearly that i have no regrets what-so-ever...

The lost is theirs to take, not mine. I did what I could, I tried stepping outta the limits just to make them happy again, I went beyond my expectations, far far beyond their expectations to be more than just what everyone calls "a friend"... But whatever happens in the future nobody can predict. no matter how hard we judge people's behaviour & character, it'll all change in time... And when the time comes, u'll know what u're up against...

But whatever goes around, comes around & what goes up must come down... That's the karma of life...

Expressions of the heart

Could it be? The expressions of my heart might be too sincere to please? Or is it all just an illusion... Some fears that I've encounter, I can never overcome, but it is a journey that i have to move on with. Whether or not life takes notice of me, it is I who make my own choices. Right or wrong, is for me to find out & learning to grasp the opportunity will take me further...

Sometimes I ask, what are crushes meant for? Something to please? Someone to fill in my free time with? Or just a simple meaning for the word "like"... A picture is worth a thousand word, but one word is worth a thousand meanings. It all comes down to how & who we are that makes us think different in every way. But in the end, my conclusion is, nobody is perfect. Like it or not, we're all equal human beings, but what we really lack of is judgement. Even a real Judge has no right to "judge" another one being.

Feelings that i have and keep, will never be forsaken. Kept & locked up deep down in my memories... Decades' of pictures, Centuries of words, all leads me to who I am today... My past, I'll never forget, but I'll learn to grow from every aspect without leaving anyone behind... This journey is a task, a challenge, a fulfillment & satisfaction of the inner "me"...


Xan